May 9, 2007

• The Situation

  So Alex, what the hell is going on in your life right now?

  Well, I'm glad you asked. I know I write a lot of entries about inspirational topics and lessons I feel I've learned, but today's topic is all about something I don't often address on my own blog: me! (The irony.) I've numbered and titled the following list so that you can skim directly to the one about my life right now that most interests you. Heh. Well, actually I did it more to help me organize my thoughts, but you can all benefit from it too.

  1. Dude, when are you going California? - Ok, so I've been almost moving to California for ... like a year now. I admit, I'm slow to do things. I tend to analyze and over analyze and over think major decisions before I make them. (Alright, minor ones too. Call it my fatal flaw. You'll note one of the blogrings I'm in is I think I think too much.) But let there be no doubt in your mind that it is going to happen. The decision has already been made. The die has been cast, and it's simply a matter of time and financial resources. Is it really necessary to get my financial situation in order before I go? No. But it's what I want and how I feel comfortable doing it and no one is going to convince me otherwise. I well aware of my flaws, and I'm planning ahead to avert likely disaster. Trust me, it's for the best in the long run. I know what I'm capable of when it comes to money.
  2. So, um, why are you going to Cali again? - I like it there. I like the atmosphere, the environment, the people, the vibe, the pace of life, just everything suits me and my personality much better. I have relatives who live there and ever since I was in elementary school, I would go out there for the summer every few years. I've always believed that it was a nice place to visit, but I wouldn't want to live there and I always imagined I would settle down and live here on the east coast, but all that changed the last few times I went. I don't know why, maybe because I've changed as a person, maybe because I've grown and adapted... or maybe I'm an insane wacko. But every time I visit there lately, I become increasingly aware of how much less I enjoy it here. It's crowded, everyone's in such a rush, and people are so damn rude unnecessarily. Everything moves quickly, everyone is in a hurry to get somewhere no matter how unimportant it is. I dislike the pace of life. I dislike how I close and cramped everything is. Don't get me wrong, I love New York with all its flaws and this area will always be home to me, but it's time I move on, go where I feel right.
  3. Video Games, Comicbooks, TV, and Anime - There was a time once when I swore I would never get tired of video games; when I honestly believed that I would be playing them until the day I died. Well, never has finally arrived. I haven't really picked up a controller in earnest in months. I bought new games I was excited about getting, but I played a few minutes of it and I just couldn't keep going. Even some of my favorite games that I never would get tired of playing... I just can't play them. I've lost interest. My comics sit and collect dust. My relatively new XBox360 is just a glorified DVD player these days. I have literally a whole weekend viewing's worth of anime that I have yet to crack open for the first time and I haven't sat through a real tv show in years. My passion for these things have faded. Not sure why. I don't usually question why I do or don't like something. So yeah, all the time I'm spending on my PC lately hasn't been gaming. To be honest, I think I might retire from gaming altogether.
  4. Writing - Writing is my passion. I don't profess to do it amazingly well, but I try. Art, well, I'm decent at art. I do have some talent, but I'm not an amazing artist by any means. When I thought about it, I realized that although I'm a visual person, my interest is not in creating art, it's in telling stories. I don't much like writing papers or long articles full of opinionated prose (which I've been told I'm good at). I much prefer writing stories that move people. So yeah, that's what I've been doing lately. Honestly, most of it is crap and no one will probably ever read it. (So don't ask to read it. ) But I like doing it and maybe if something good eventually does come out of it, then great. So if you notice I'm a rabid commenter, it's because I xanga inbetween writing and I need a break or I'm bored or stuck on something. Lately xanga has been how I entertain/amuse myself. And I know a lot of my readers enjoy my little musings, for better or worse, so I try to get something out there once a day for everyone to digest. I know it's nothing earth shattering or controversial most of the time, but I guess I'm catering to the expectations of my readers. 
  5. Cinema - On the list of things I ever imagined myself doing, movies was never anywhere on there at any point in my life, however after having taken a few cinema classes during my time at SVA (The School of Visual Arts) I've found that my interest in it has grown. I'm not sure where this will lead me and to be honest, I'm sure if you handed me a camera and told me to make a movie, it would be terrible and uninteresting, but I like the notion of visual storytelling that cinema represents and it is one of the most prominent visual storytelling mediums. I saw Clerks II yesterday and watching Kevin Smith go through the whole process of making it (on the bonus disc) fills me with a desire to go out and bring some of my stories to life in film. Granted, most of what I've written so far isn't all that compelling, but it's something I've been mulling over lately. Do I fancy myself a filmmaker? Meh, I dunno. I'm not the kind of person to say "I love doing this, this is what I definately want to be!" because who knows, maybe I won't like it, or maybe I'll change my mind. But I have watched a rediculous amount of movies lately. If ya'll have any suggestions for good movies I should watch, I'm all ears.

  I guess that's it in a nutshell. Aren't you glad you read this far?

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