May 1, 2007
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Inner Strength
In my selfish thoughts about my own wants and desires, for a moment, I became too blind to notice all the struggles people around me were trying to cope with. And I am reminded of how fortunate I am.
Everyone reaches a point in their life when everything seems to be going awry. Your world is crumbling around you, or you feel lonely and alone despite the fact that you know you have friends and family standing behind you. There are times when you feel like you can no longer stand up on your own two feet, when the walls are closing in around you, when you just want to give up and throw in the towel. You're questioning things, maybe everything you know, and God, or whatever greater power you believe in, offers you no solution or reply.
It's easy to stand on your own two feet when things are going well. It's easy to say you're independent, strong, and motivated when everything is right. It's when things are at their worst that your true strength is tested. When you're faced with demons you can't seem to shake, problems you can't seem to solve, or questions with no answers, you will not find the solution in other people, from the television, from a book, or even yelling up at the sky. It's at these times that you must draw upon that strength and confidence that came so easily when things were going well. It's not so simple to do it anymore when the skies are dark and looming, but never doubt that it's still there, untainted, still sparkling within your soul, waiting for you to call it forth.
No one else will do it for you.
No one else will force you to get back up again.
No one else can brighten your skies as long as you wish them to remain dark and forboding.
No one else can repair your broken wings.
No one else will make you find the courage to try to fly again.
You must find the strength in yourself to do it for yourself, for your own reasons, for your own purposes, for your own self and future. Not because of your parents, your family, your boyfriend or girlfriend, your so-called true love, or any other person or thing which exists outside of yourself.
Only once you find that strength within, will you find any answers beyond the boundaries of what defines you.
(Originally posted July 19, 2004)
Comments (5)
thank you for this post..
It's unfortunate that most people don't have the courage, self love, strength, etc. to fix themselves properly...or even fix themselves at all... *sigh*
What you're going through is probably known to many, including myself, as a life crisis. Quarter life crisis is so much fun because we have it hardest with the rising technology and climate-awareness increase. Take it one day at a time.
The challenge is in finding a balance. A balance between a healthy self-reliance and a healthy interdependence. Too often our relationships can be characterized by a leaning co-dependence or a lonely independence, neither of which are healthy nor wise. The wisdom is discovering when / where we allow people in and when / where we need to be self-reliant.
Age is a factor in learning this balance. When young, we're invincible and think we can pretty much go it alone. As we mature, we learn how important it is to have people around us. Not to hold us upright emotionally or socially, but to be part of a supportive community. Truer maturity comes when we recognize that we can offer that to others as well.
ryc: Something like that...
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